So sick of staying at home!

My mother is so....!!!!

my brother is so..!

ARGH.

i dont care. i goingto find some dumb excuse and get out of the house tmr.

I'm seriously wasting my time at home, considering i will not have anymore leisure time wednesday starting.

GAHHHHH!

So pissing offf!

everyday,i just spent my time at home, can use the computer once my brother is home. Because "if i use, he wont study"

Then morning if i use longer then 1 hour, she will say i'm addicted and whatsoever nonsense.

So what. Its a holiday spent tutioning without being paid for anything. time, effort, medical cost. (becase my blood boil, pressure rise, bursting of blood vessels..)

ARGH.

PISS PISS PISS.

Now, keep asking me to do things. go down buy this, buy that, for my brother. Not for myself.

when i say, later.

She will reply, when did you go down after i tell you to.

What nonsense!

i say later means later right!

i never say i wont go down!!

ARGH. Freaking menupause! Short temper and irritating!

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

PISS PISS PISS PISS.

I'M SO GETTING OUT TMR. EVEN IF IT MEANS GOING OUT ALONE. SO BE IT. I SHALL GO OUT ALONE. BETTER THAN STAYING HERE.

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Changing topic to calm myself.

Baby's coming Singapore on my mother's birthday, yea. with her temper, i wont even ask about going. i know its a NO. So nevermind, dont ask.

Baby's freaking going to be at my school's theatre and i'm going to be stuck at home, doing the same thing, teaching that boy his work. i can predict. no, not predict. I KNOW. Its a fact that everyone knows.

wait, i'm not side tracking, i'm still on this topic. GAH. "its etch in my mind ever since" that's what my brother ALWAYS USES for his compo conclusion. ALWAYS. I can memorize. and i bet his writing it now. In school. His prelim English today. Confirm.

GAH. ~

Anyway, dont care.i'm still getting out tmr.

Dont care.

Dont care. I have to, before i have high blood pressure like my mother.

i'm still young. i dont want die young you know.

i need to earn money. Then i will go on overseas trip myself.Alone.

I dont know why, but i like being alone.

I dont mind shopping, watching movie, eating, walking, running, exercising.. all alone.

I like it,in fact. I dont know why. is that weird?

like, i like going school on my own in the morning,

i like to take bus and MRT home myself,

i like to do work on my home(not study with friends),

i like to use comp on my own.

Just doing everything alone.

I think that haveing too many people around is, nuisance?

that seems like a pretty strong word huh.

but yea. i dont know why.

i like the peace that i will have .

I want to go korea.

i want to go Australia. By myself.

that's why i'm saving money now. Not for future. For my Future Trips. ALONE.

or maybe just 1 more person along. Not 3 people?

Oh wwell. i have to wait though. Judging my mother.. heh. never in my life.

nevermind. i will find my way^^