Or maybe is just my period is coming.

Cried twice today. once infront of Mr L, Chef S. The other infront of my parents.

I hate it.

i only show my weak side to people i'm close to. Not random Tom dick or harry. I know you're thinking, aren't i closed to my parents? Yes. but not when they just want to accuse me and Fucking dont look into it. All they want to say is, "I'm your mother you respect me." "i dont want to hear that from you again cause i'm your father". Like Fuck. i can't say things i want?

They are getting used to me being so obedient and being a listening to instructions little girl. When my younger brother goes against them, they just sigh and walk away. When its me, then scream at me. shouldn't it be the other way round cause my brother is the one that is in the 'education' stage and need to learn?

Apparently they are taking for granted that i'm being good, so once i'm talk back, they deem me as disrespectful. There is a thin line between disrespectful and protecting myself. They dont seem to get it. WTF is all i can say.

The first cry today.

not going to talk about it here. Definitely not something nice, not happy tears.

Its just.. C.O.N.F.L.I.C.T

and as a 'Council' member, i guess i'm being 'forced' or rather 'tasked' to resolve this issue.

Not that i have problems solving, but its, hard. ARGH. you wont get it, do you???

Whatever! These are cries to show that:, MY PERIOD IS COMING. i'm going to be in pain and suffering in a few days time!

just got home from Timbre with Steffi. oh well. shall blog next time.

Tired. Shag. Pissed. Irritated. Agitated. DO NOT TOUCH.